My dream last night (growing up)
Last night I had a dream that I was in South Berkeley, trying to head up to the north (I think). And I was trying to walk up Dwight way but there were some kids right before the corner of Sacramento ave that wouldn’t let my friends and me pass. The only kid I remember was a chubby kid, with short blonde hair. The kid wouldn’t let us pass so eventually we starting fighting. It was a really awkward fight that didn’t really go any where and eventually I stopped and looked at him and asked “How old are you?” And he said “19” and I laughed and said “You’re probably 14.” And I knew it was true and then I could pass him.
I realized when I woke up that the chubby blonde kid was me when I was around that age (probably 11 to 13). When I tried to meet him at his level, fighting, I still couldn’t get passed him. It was only after I realized how young he was that I could move on. It’s about me trying to grow up. I am still pretty childish with a lot of things and sometimes just realizing that can help me get passed them. Adding to this, the symbols in the dream reflect some of this. South Berkeley is the poorer side of Berkeley. The North is the richer part, as well as where UC Berkeley is. I am trying to head towards a more personally fulfilling place and thus it has the university and is “richer.” The block I was on is also where I used to go to tutoring when I was in High School.
I am trying to move up, into adulthood, but where I end up is still on Sacramento and Dwight. Still on the South Side but at least the direction is right.
